I've written a lot about the moon and how it affects me and triggers old feelings, and I can't tell you how grateful I am for it. As sarcastic and grumpy as I was when I woke up this morning, I'm so grateful and relaxed now. Working through the past (healing past issues) happens in cycles. Tonight the topic of sexual abuse came up in my dream, and I allowed myself to be in that grumpy and upset state until I found the right outlet to release the underlying emotions of grief and sadness. The fascinating thing is, that low emotional states just happen now without anyone trying to avoid it or trying to alter or manipulate the situation by a body in autopilot running the familiar coping/avoidance strategies. It’s been seen through enough. They have no power over me anymore. It took me a while to fully understand the extent of the sexual abuse I experienced as a child.
The moon was in Gate 37 during the night and in the morning.
It's the gate on one of my ascendant signs and it's the ‘Gate of the Family.’
It took me a bit to write about it here and at the same time, I don't really care about all this family drama anymore. This video popped up on my youtube page and it was the perfect music for me to release stored emotions related to sexual abuse and its impact on my life. And the only thing I said to myself was:
"Yes, this is what I chose to explore, among other very dark things in my life.”
But why? Because I'm in advanced training mode and I can handle all this darkness. Because I am a master alchemist. I go from absolute darkness to absolute light. Yin Yang - Van Damme (My teenage crush ;-).

Let’s be a bit more specific about the moon and how Moon in Pisces is related to sexual trauma and abuse in my life and why a Transit Moon in Pisces has the potential to stear up those old supressed emotions.
First of all I have my Moon in Pisces in my birthchart. Then I have a Pisces Southnode in Gate 36. When I read the original transmission of what it means to be born into an environment (family) with a southnode in gate 36 I was baffled and speechless. This is part of the original description of my south and northnode-themes ouf of a Human Design Book (The 32 Nodal Environments - International Human Design School)

”An Environment Full of Trauma, Crisis and Sexuality. On the other side we have the 36th gate which is the Gate of the Darkening of the Light - The Gate of Crisis.
This combination of the 6 and the 36, these are beings that are going to have to find their purpose in an environment that is full of trauma, which is full of crisis.
And in an environment that is highly sexual in its content. In other words, that sexuality is going to be very much a part of the background of this particular process.”

42 years later I find myself in an environment that reflects back the energies of my childhood environment and provides me with everything I need in order to fully heal and integrate the trauma and unresolved patterns. The northnode activation is primarly a cycle where one has the chance to fully realize and embody ones true soul purpose in life. And this is exactly what happenend for me.

Scripted Reality. My life is like a movie.